Heap of Grain- Thoughts on Psalm 4:6-8

“Many are saying, “Who will show us any good?” (NASB) “ Let the light of Your radiant face break through and shine upon us! The intense pleasure You give me surpasses the gladness of harvest time, even more than when the harvesters gaze upon their ripened grain and when their new wine overflows.” (TPT) “In peace [and with a tranquil heart] I will both lie down and sleep, for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety and confident trust.” (AMP) Psalm 4:6-8

Abundance is good, and having plenty can bring happiness. But what happens when what you have is lost? Can there still be peace and and true joy? As I studied these verses I came across a reference to Ruth 3:7. (The treasure I uncovered is such a gift, and 3/7 is my birthday! This is the intense pleasure God gives in seemingly ordinary moments.) In this verse, Boaz was full and his heart was merry after eating and drinking all evening. He laid down to sleep at the end of his heaping harvest of grain. His heart was at peace and he went to sleep. Enter Ruth. She crept in quietly and placed herself at his feet as a sign of her availability to him. Such a courageous act of faith! She knew of the abundance and hoped for favor and blessing. She needed someone to care for her. She was brave, and she came in close. She put herself at the feet of the provider in such humility.

I too am learning to come in closer to God, my Provider. To wait quietly fosters faith, and to humbly place my self at his feet means I expect Him to fill my needs. Fear of being rejected, or not being provided for can sometimes push me into anxious striving. I don’t want to settle for the crumbs my own hands can gather when I can trust God to provide a feast. By letting God provide for my needs, He puts gladness in my heart. Each time I seek Him with my whole heart, He wholeheartedly fills me in ways that are true and lasting. Why do I have joy in the midst of difficulty and unanswered prayers? Because He gives me all I need. He has the heap of grains I so desire. I must trust the Giver.

Father God, You are my provider. You bring the joy that I seek “Let the light of Your radiant face break through and shine upon us!” I lay my worries and needs at Your feet. Fill me with Your abundance. My heart is available to You. Your perfect love casts out fear. In Jesus’ name, amen.

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I stand in the shadows and watch your life shine

The gifts you enjoy I wish they were mine

Most name me in kindness a self giving soul

But thoughts underneath if I’m honest are cruel

It isn’t my heart that wants to be cold

But the pride that’s within feeds on pain left untold

These words as I write them feel selfish and wrong

And the evil will conquer if I don’t hold on strong

The truth that I know will bring back the light

Coax me from darkness, my Prince, my Knight

I turn my heart from this blasphemous woe

Succumb to the Savior my soul came to know

Honest in struggles and vulnerable truth

Lands me straight in the arms of infallible proof

Prayers have been answered and goodness restored

In the flash of a moment the doubts have been torn

I step out in faith leaving comfortable knowns

Drawing strength for the journey that is not my own

To be loved as a daughter by the Creator of all

A Kingdom awaits and in hope I stand tall

The envy that threatens to bring down and toy

Is conquered by freedom Christ gave to enjoy

A life with purpose and a world to explore

Instead of relief I seek wisdom and peace more.