I stand in the shadows and watch your life shine
The gifts you enjoy I wish they were mine
Most name me in kindness a self giving soul
But thoughts underneath if I’m honest are cruel
It isn’t my heart that wants to be cold
But the pride that’s within feeds on pain left untold
These words as I write them feel selfish and wrong
And the evil will conquer if I don’t hold on strong
The truth that I know will bring back the light
Coax me from darkness, my Prince, my Knight
I turn my heart from this blasphemous woe
Succumb to the Savior my soul came to know
Honest in struggles and vulnerable truth
Lands me straight in the arms of infallible proof
Prayers have been answered and goodness restored
In the flash of a moment the doubts have been torn
I step out in faith leaving comfortable knowns
Drawing strength for the journey that is not my own
To be loved as a daughter by the Creator of all
A Kingdom awaits and in hope I stand tall
The envy that threatens to bring down and destroy
Is conquered by freedom Christ gave to enjoy
A life with purpose and a world to explore
Instead of relief I seek wisdom and peace more.
